You Maniacs! You blew it up! Ah, damn you! God damn you all to hell!

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 15:29:16 GMT

other than looking for a job my new short term goal is to become a dci certified rules advisor and then atempt to move through the dci judge ranks

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 00:47:57 GMT

and another winter is about to begin, another year older with no direction in life and trying to figure out how to struggle through the winter, i need to figure out how to change this.

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 23:31:54 GMT

i lose my job in a month and dave is bailing on me, i have less than a month to figure out a solution to both of these problems else ill be homeless and have to figure out where my shit will go.

im sick of not being able to catch a break.

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 20:43:51 GMT

and a sigh of relief, 76 bucks to register and a 10 dollar increase in my insurance w/e not as bad as it could have been. i feel much safer and happier driving the newer car, thanks again adam : D

birthday is quickly approaching, this year i actually have a car im comfortable driving distances so maybe ill try and take a 3 day weekend and go visit people or person whichever seems more convenient : P

boo at being 24 soon and not really having a direction in life, yay at somehow being content with that though : P

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 00:27:30 GMT

SINGING EVERYBODY WAKE UP, WAKE UP IT'S TIME TO GET DOWN.

i need to figure out some direction in my life, whether its going back to school in some capacity, or getting some certifications so i can step up in the world a little. scraping by is getting old.

campground work will start wrapping up in a couple short months and im not entirely sure what i want to do about that, my parents want me to keep working there seasonally, but not getting full time hours and the prospect of having to essentially be a secretary is not very interesting.

summer is basically over, i did nothing that could be called eventful. dont really know if thats good or bad yet, just know that i feel like i missed out on what could have been.

time to start getting ready for winter again hoping that i dont go broke just trying to live.

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 20:03:12 GMT

going back to play wow, champions online is cool but no one else really intends on playing it.... sooo yeah.

district 9 tonight

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 12:50:00 GMT

7:40 pm | 10:05 pm

probably hitting the 10pm showing unless enough people can make the 740 showing

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 14:00:59 GMT

So at this point I'm nearly positive I'll be quitting WoW after my nearly 5 and a half year love hate relationship with that game. Obviously I won't quit gaming : P but I'll be picking up the new game Champions Online which should give me a more relaxed and different experience allowing me to play more casually, and perhaps even start on an even keel with some friends? Be sure to check out the game, especially if you are into comic type heroes and such.

Hopefully the next few months go smoothly, I need to start looking for a job so if ANYONE knows ANYWHERE that is hiring please let me know. I've long since accepted the fact that I will have to commute from Oswego to somewhere for any sort of actual work, at least soon I'll have Adam's old car on the road so I won't be so worried about traveling in general anymore.

For all you magic lovers out there my soldiers deck is coming along nicely and will be better come october when the lorewyn block gets shoved off the legal play list : P

Hopefully I can set aside some money for some kind of simple vacation soon, even if it's only a trip to visit people who don't live in the area these days.

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 19:15:23 GMT

im stuck in a rut. not entirely sure which direction to go to get out either.

i can haz cheezbrgr?

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 03:51:31 GMT

nom nom nom. that is all

also PAH!!! PAH!!!!

are you saying pow?

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 04:22:25 GMT

jim sent me a letter, it really reminded me of how much i miss him : /

he asked me to share his mailing address and instructed me that we should send as much ridiculous mail as possible so long as its in a normal envelope

SR CALVERASE , JAMES D.
DIVISION NUMBER 256: SHIP BERTH : 03
RECRUIT TRAINING COMMAND
3600 OHIO STREET
GREAT LAKES, ILLINOIS 60088-3156

he says hi to everyone and that he is well.

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 02:19:36 GMT

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 04:34:46 GMT

my leg is bleeding and it hurts

Sun, 24 May 2009 02:25:00 GMT

sometimes i just want to disappear without a trace...

Wed, 06 May 2009 22:45:26 GMT

list of next tattoos in no particular order

teenage mutant ninja turtles leg sleeve/coverup on left leg
right wrist "to my friends i'll be there for you" left wrist "be there for me"
GI JOE leg sleeve right leg
autobot logo left foot decpticon logo right foot
Dexter's Lab in an arc on my stomach same color and font as the show with DeeDee and Dexter under it
where the wild things are lower arm/sleeve finish up(probably last as it takes the most time and planning)

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 21:15:12 GMT

i got sucked back into wow i leveled my rogue from 58-80 in 8 days and got it fairly well geared in the following 3 days. as much as i enjoy doing things with people irl raiding is an all to enjoyable hobby ive maintained for so many years, this time around im not an officer and dont plan on ever assuming said role, im playing with people i like for once since they are many of the best people from several of my previous guilds, and we only raid 3 hours a night 5 days a week.

working with my parents is going ok, im not really back into the swing of things i take lunch breaks that are to long and often get to work late, i need to find that feeling of urgency to get to work on time and only take a normal lunch break.

money is slowly becoming stable again once daves mom settles with me from the bounced check and after i go to the eye doctor again in a few days things will become much clearer as to what money can actually be spent and saved which will be nice.

i am really hoping that this will be an enjoyable summer, even though it will start with saying goodbye to some friends that i will hardly see over the next few years.

all in all im confused about what i want out of life right now, as much as i love having my friends around and just hanging out or doing whatever there was an odd comfort in the last week just being home by myself knowing no one would be around at all but me and i was fine with it for once. not restless not worrying about what lies beyond the doors just content with being alone not caring about anything, but sometimes the silence is deafening.

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 18:51:16 GMT

in debt and unhappy with more debt coming, what an exciting prospect. maybe next month will be better, im not going to hold my breath.

cleaning and reorganizing things at the house today since i have no money, and apparently the usual crowd is off doing something. to bad i dont have money for some tattoos cause id just go do that when i got bored.

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 22:35:09 GMT

considering scrapping the nightmare before christmas legsleeve idea since it technically wasnt really "planned" and the more i look at the jack the more imperfections i find in it, that sure was a mistake tattoo, live and learn. so now im starting to think of something that would be a full coverup negative space design with EDGE on the front and LIFE on the back of my leg(in the end it would be a full leg wrap with a negative space design plus said words)

so if anyone feels like drawing up some kind of negative space designs that would be cool : )

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 03:12:33 GMT

ticketed for my headlight that was out, fun. if i had a wound, it would be packed mighty full of salt at this point.

maybe ill catch a break after i die.

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 16:24:33 GMT

no job, my last paycheck bounced, crossing my fingers that my car insurance payment went through before said check bounced, no groceries, not much gas in the car, probably owe the bank over 200 dollars now after said check bounced due to having insufficient funds in my checking where the money resided, more bills coming up followed by more eye doctor visits which im supposed to pay for. this is how my week is ending maybe things can get worse.

all i can do is do my best to better my situation, and hope things get better... but hope fades.

reading old books

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 19:51:49 GMT

So truth is in a certain feeling of permanence that presses around the moment. They are ordinary people, after all. For a time they had entered the world of newspaper statistic; a world where any measure you took to feel better was temporary, at best, but that is over. This is permanent. It must be.

why bother

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 20:06:55 GMT

as of yesterday i was pumped, for the first time since i started working at the flower place i was going to come out on top at the end of the month instead of just breaking even. now as of today the business has closed and i have no job, ill probably be able to pay my bills but now im in the predicament of having a few short weeks to find a new job in order to pay utilities next month. odds are i wont have the money to go back to the eye doctor at this point... but whatever whats one more shitty thing to stack on the pile right?

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 01:34:38 GMT

atempts at losing weight and getting back in shape are proving fruitful so far, havent missed a day in over a week riding my bike or atleast walking for some distance, im sick of being in NY but im to broke to leave.

thats all for now i suppose.

ugh

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 01:18:23 GMT

ive let myself go long enough before i hit 260 time to do something about my health so i can atleast get back to my high school time weight(need to lose about 40 lbs which is sad to think ive tacked on that much weight in a handful of years). if anyone in the area is interested in jogging daily im going to start this week sometime(something in the range of a half a mile to a mile). looks like its back to smaller meals and less fast food even if its not convenient.

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 16:20:59 GMT

looking for any pc 2100 or 2700 ram that any of you might have laying around gimme a shout.